I haven’t written anything down here for AGES. I’ve been writing, painting, and playing a lot of a video-game I bought recently.
But anyway. Over this afternoon I jumped back into the mentally treacherous waters of publishing. Or at least looking into it, seeing opinions, the processes, and so forth. There were some things I have found consistent among the blogs and documents in regard to publishing.
A couple being that the covers and titles of one’s work is not within their sphere of control. I would assume this is also related to any sort of illustrational décor. I, from a business/marketing perspective, understand whole heatedly. It is only logical that the publishing agency will want not only influence over the content but also the first thing which might capture a potential reader’s interest. Even still, I have spent countless hours, perhaps days, playing with illustrations, glyphical designs, in-world graphic designs and character-works. These while I had intent (and still do I suppose) to use advertising; my main interest was doing such things is for fun.
But, if I can ever find BETA-readers and make it through the wastes otherwise known as the process to publication; my efforts of expression will ultimately end up either rotting on my hard drive, or be put into my own advertising efforts. Of course the latter endeavor will most certainly be compromised when I have something that the publishing house has already had their art department design. My brain (and I’m sure their own watchful eyes) will cause me to simply use their works and trash any interests of my own to use my self-created works.
It’s a bit of my fault. Having interests in not only writing, but also painting. As I imagine most would say ‘your writing should be enough’ but, I have dual interests, and novelizing my thoughts has its advantages and disadvantages. Detailed descriptions of places and peoples are deemed being (generally) as being unnecessary. I myself have detailed imagery, and beside that, I do it for enjoyment. Still I find that painting/sketching/cartooning my thoughts has another dimension of expression that books cannot grasp. Just as books possess a level of intimacy that pictorial art cannot touch.
There is another road I can take. But, in the interest of good fiction, I fear taking it. Self-publishing is alluring and while it has ever so many disadvantages it does afford one total expressive range. The downside is the chance of writing a shitty book with little outside perspective and little to no bar prior to publication is a bit unnerving. It’s too easy. Difficult, yes, but the process to self-publication while possessing obvious trails, is overally far too simple and convenient. Destroying judgmental prevention, and allowing anything you write. No matter how appalling it might actually be to be published. I’ve written a lot. So much. I’ve painted a library of works, and I can be honest and say that only a tiny portion of that I would actually want to see in print, and only after having people outside myself offer me critical observation. Not asinine douchbaggery. But actual, useful critical examination.
Sure traditional publishing has long spurts of time, maiming ones ideas, and trudging their feet all over the work to the sometimes point of being unrecognizable (based upon an individual’s own self-interest and publishing house), but, still, at least you know if a traditional publishing house does put your work through that effort, and their investing in it, then your work has passed the judgmental eyes. Whether or not these judgmental eyes are for the general artistic sake or for the general sake of income; still your work won them over. They are representing it. That’s much better than ‘eh, fuck it. Let’s publish this baby.” *clicks upload*
From this point I entered another phase of thought. Currently, I am avidly writing the second book of a trilogy of books I want to write. The problem I discover is this: Often time authors will say they are working on their next book only after their work has been set to be published. Meaning they (are apparently) only working on one book until it is finally published. But writing is their life. Despite being rejected or something, they are working on no other work? Or perhaps they are. Maybe books from unrelated universes? Still, if something is burning in oneself, regardless of a publisher taking your baby and printing it, should not that fire spur you to create subsequent works without them needing to be in print? I have written countless drafts of my first book. (I’m still editing it actually, and adding scenes and taking out things) yet I’ve come to understand that my work will NEVER be done. As such I’ve restrained myself from adding or taking out huge sections. Or rewriting it completely. Instead I’ve moved onto the next book as I hunt of BETA-readers.
I myself feel that urge that when my book is in print then it will be ‘finished’. Not really, but it will feel a lot less gaseous than it does currently. When I search about, I find none that talk about writing books without publishing them. Just for the sake of writing. It leaves me wondering if I am wasting my time. I mean, I write because I feel I have to. I think of it constantly. So I write. In that regard certainly I am not wasting my time. But in regard to the perspective of others whose end goal is publication, certainly either I’m wasting my time, or others do the same thing without talking about it in searchable sites on the internet.
There is also another point of interest I found. I enjoy appendices and in my love for character data-banks, (and according to a reader of mine) “Appendices would be awesome so I know more about these places, species, minerals, and so on” I, on my own, for pure enjoyment, have attempted various versions of Companion pieces. From pure word based pieces to interactive menus, to illustrated books. (all with the knowledge that the content of my book will change, and I can mend/add/subtract information at any time. Or in other words, not printing them) I was in hopes that if ever somehow my atrocities are published, that they may accompany the work as a free download or something for fans. However, as far as I can see, this is not common (or else I am appalling as a google searcher ((or just haven’t picked through websites enough))) Anyway, I feel a bit alone in this thus far, though I know the likelihood that being the case is astronomically low.
There was no true point to this entry I feel. (There was but) So I rambled and ranted, which is sometimes the entire point of having one of these sort of diaries. Anyway, if you feel interested share your thoughts.