Five rejection letters and the novelty has dulled. (I’ve sent many more, but only have gotten few responses) Now comes the greater endeavor: enduring the rejections soon to come. To withstand the doubt that will laminate my perception. However, should I armor myself, perhaps I’ll survive long enough to stumble upon an agent that sees my work’s value.
Otherwise, I’ll disband from this quest, and my work either collects dust, or enters commercial dominion through my own unaided efforts. Where, it will be for the public to praise or ridicule, without myself having knowledge of it’s worth from the eyes of an agent or publisher.
Either reality may come to pass, however, I do hope my original goal sees fruition. After-all, recourse is never attractive after witnessing your failure.
Less chipper than I’d like, but the point of this is to let my thoughts come out.
I’ll have to work on devising something more charming to write. Or discover some sort of unique quality I might posses that I can share with others.
The chaos that dwells within my mind must remain, lest I bore those I love.
It is a truth upon which I continually stumble. Frustrating, but understandable. But, frustrating. As I have scarce output for the things going on inside my mind. It builds alienation, loneliness.
People don’t care about my book, nor my characters. They aren’t interested in mythical constructs I’ve made nor the conflicts or deaths. And it’s just a fact I have to live with.
These characters and events within my mind will annoy only me, until I finally, possibly, find an audience who shares an interest; a connection. And then, they too can be annoyed by these fictional people.
So a plan of mine is to include excerpts at the end of the work from various texts within my novels.
Such as a newspaper clipping, so not to bore the reader too deeply–I’ll include the article the character actually read in it’s entirety at the end of the book.
I’ve always found things like this to be a way to realize the fictional world a bit more.
Somethings we see in the world aren’t of interest to us. In a sense, some things like a news article, reference materiel or hypothesis, although relevant to the plot, may not be an entertaining read. Even still, it exists and creates a more realistic world.
My beta-reader has finally finished my book! Very exciting time.
Lots of problems/improvements have been made known now. So after a bit of picking up my shattered heart, I’ve begun to amend things. It’s been a week or so, and I’ve already added some scenes, detail, and altered story-archs.
I still have a ways to go. It’s pretty exciting now that I have external perception. My work can be elevated to a state that is good enough to start getting rejection letters!
To readers: If you are going through this–any tips? What are your experiences with editing after receiving beta-reader comments?
So I’ve come a long way writing the Order of Nara. Along the way I’ve been dabbling in constructing promotionals. Mostly illustrations, which I can translate into posters, buttons, keychains, ect. I’ve even theorized producing a pinup book of some of my female and male characters. Probably to be released in Japanese, for threat of being targeted by various American audience members.
It’s taken a long time writing the book, and I’m not done yet. I need to pay various BETA-readers so I can get objective outlooks, and then, after I’ve spent hours and hours of editing based upon their comments, I have to pay a proof-editor. Then, finally, I can seek out an agent.
All that time I’ve devised these illustrations, and I think, if I can do it right, they’ll heighten the book’s appearance. I really do want my books to have enough drawn art along with the written art, that I can decorate my website, posters, and what not with more than merely a cover.