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For not the first time and certainly not its end, I fret over the various destructions that may befall me, should my writing come to no fruitful end.

But I know when I’m no longer worrying about that potential future, when I’m not bending myself for the social game, I return to artistic creation.

My natural state.

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Of Lore Appendices

So a plan of mine is to include excerpts at the end of the work from various texts within my novels.

Such as a newspaper clipping, so not to bore the reader too deeply–I’ll include the article the character actually read in it’s entirety at the end of the book.

I’ve always found things like this to be a way to realize the fictional world a bit more.

Somethings we see in the world aren’t of interest to us. In a sense, some things like a news article, reference materiel or hypothesis,  although relevant to the plot, may not be an entertaining read. Even still, it exists and creates a more realistic world.

I shall continue with me ponderings.

Of Lore Appendices

First BETA reader, finished my book~!


My beta-reader has finally finished my book! Very exciting time.

Lots of problems/improvements have been made known now. So after a bit of picking up my shattered heart, I’ve begun to amend things. It’s been a week or so, and I’ve already added some scenes, detail,  and altered story-archs.

I still have a ways to go. It’s pretty exciting now that I have external perception. My work can be elevated to a state that is good enough to start getting rejection letters!

To readers: If you are going through this–any tips? What are your experiences with editing after receiving beta-reader comments?



First BETA reader, finished my book~!

The Constant Throes of Contemplating Promotionals

So I’ve come a long way writing the Order of Nara. Along the way I’ve been dabbling in constructing promotionals. Mostly illustrations, which I can translate into posters, buttons, keychains, ect. I’ve even theorized producing a pinup book of some of my female and male characters. Probably to be released in Japanese, for threat of being targeted by various American audience members.

It’s taken a long time writing the book, and I’m not done yet. I need to pay various BETA-readers so I can get objective outlooks, and then, after I’ve spent hours and hours of editing based upon their comments, I have to pay a proof-editor. Then, finally, I can seek out an agent.

All that time I’ve devised these illustrations, and I think, if I can do it right, they’ll heighten the book’s appearance. I really do want my books to have enough drawn art along with the written art, that I can decorate my website, posters, and what not with more than merely a cover.


The Constant Throes of Contemplating Promotionals

Cover Designing Thoughts

So here’s a thing….

I often come to this weird uncertainty about the end-pictorial design for my books.

Now I understand that if done through trade-publishing there is a good chance one’s say in cover designs is minimal to zilch. Granted the ones doing the designing for your book are well…. designers. As writers are presumably versed in stories, the designers are versed in design/marketing/manipulating unsuspecting innocents. However, while I haven’t any problem with common styles of book-cover design–I do have interests in broader artistic spectra than purely literary art.

If you are playing a video game, there are numerous other things surrounding the game-mechanics.Such a music, environment, character designs, ambience, so on. Likewise, while yes, the main bit of novels is word-smithing, it also is about characters, plot, environment and so on. Fans may, perhaps, enjoy the world that you have constructed–and maybe, just maybe,might enjoy seeing such a world brought to live via other media.It is not a requirement of a writer to facilitate this end, but for myself, it is an interest. I realize the parallel might not come off as being a good example, but video-games have branched into other media, for both artistic exploration and for their fans. When I found a film adaptation of Odd Thomas, I watched it several times and wished I could have little trinkets and things centered around Odd, Stormy or maybe even Elvis (who was sans from the movie….).

I also have this weird fascination with alternate styles. Which something love to employ once and a while.

The right realism render of the main cast from the anime Cowboy Bebop. This lovely was made by Shilesque

I know,there are quite possibly a legion of writers who would wave their hand in essentially the mind of ‘I’m a writer’ or ‘My writing speaks for itself’ Which is fine, and I admire it. For me, I (perhaps do to my immaturity as a writer or just different interests) Enjoy employing a large range of  methods for expression. Hell, if I could work to develop video games I’d do it in a heartbeat. My focus would still be the story. But if I could work with people who could devise the characters and worlds, and are able to bring it to life via their perceptive and styles springboarding off of the thematic intent I hope is conveyed in my books I’d be enthralled.

This in no way condemns literature, nor boasts games. Neither medium is superior to the other. Writing novels has been to me a necessity. I loath the idea of not writing or reading. Nor are the other art forms to act as glue or duck-tape. The book/story should stand on it’s own. The other additions are just that–additions. Little bonuses. Pen-flashlights you get along with a Garden of Eden Creation Kit.

That joke will probably be lost on many…

Anyway, my interest in doing at least consultation about cover design. Such as style. Is important to me. Just as marketing it is. I think it’d be enjoyable to devise promotionals, and if somehow possible, my work becomes liked by enough, creating little things to give away at book signings to fans. .


Cover Designing Thoughts

Usual check-list for Writting

So, I don’t really have a writing desk at the moment. (I write anywhere, everywhere–well not really. But lots of places) So I can’t take a photo and share… But, I do have a list of things I do to help me getting into writing mode.

  1. Locations: Bed, cafe/diner, sort of writing desk
  2. Appropriate music, I listen to whatever music fits whatever I’m writing. Or sometimes it doesn’t need to be scene-specific. I also enjoy ambiance, it helps with setting tones, or even just letting me trance out.
  3. Coffee, snacks, other drinks.
  4. Isolation. Nothing is more distracting than your friends. You love them, but damn are they distracting. Being alone allows for you to really delve into your mind.
  5. Write, write, write, and then become so grooved into it, you forget reality. Not really something I think properly fits here, but (like with everyone else I bet) when you write enough during a session, you lose yourself in it, you fall into a beautiful trance.
  6. Walking, i go walking a lot, I play music (usually) and just mentally make scenes, or use imaginary interviews in order to get myself thinking about certain things about my book(s).
  7. Drawing, sketching, characters, and locations. It helps me connect to my story. I feel like by drawing them out I’m getting another side of my story.
  8. Writing things about the character that isn’t necessarily in the story, but it helps you get an idea of how they are. Also, depending on what you come up with, you could have discovered part of their actual life.
  9. Playing video-games (RPGs for me) or reading books/blogs outside of my genera. It can inspire me, give me ideas, and if it’s outside of my genera I won’t compare it (necessarily) to my work and run risk of maiming my beautiful (to me!) story by thinking it needs to be like (or exactly like) someone else’s work. (Because they are like 400% better than me.)
  10. Creating a ‘general notes’ document for either an individual story or the series. I currently have one for my series. I separate volume-specific info, but I always keep it open in case an idea comes to mind. I’ll then write it out, sometimes even developing into long data entries or scenes.

That’s all for now (I think)

What sort of things do you do to really get into the writing mood?

Usual check-list for Writting

The Blurred Ends between Oneself and their Fiction

All writers are passionate of their work, lest it be left after a momentary jolt of interest. Not in all cases, that the of love for the work allows them to make it to the end, but the likelihood of finishing a work, for which one has affection, is incredibly higher than the alternative. So it is no surprise that one will likely be invested within the work in some form or another.

As far to my knowledge, all authors, or at least most, have certain ideas or messages which they convey within their fiction. If, not through narrow events, situations, characters, or what not; then by a pervading theme, essence and so forth. This is not always the case, all authors are individuals, with their own unique fingerprint. Sometimes even, the intended message is in opposition to the ideas conveyed throughout the work.

No matter the reality that there are a limited number of stories to tell. That is not a barrier on one’s ability to tell a story. To reinvent, alter and make new works.

Anyway, there sometimes comes a predicament, in my experience with my own work, which is supernatural fantasy; my own philosophical and ideological viewpoints, amidst alternatives of the same fields, cause me to become incredibly invested within my stories. Prolonged involvement with it causes me to feel that the lines between the hyperalized ideas within the work and my own, blur. It is commonplace with many writers as they feel the characters jangling around inside their heads. Or their emotions are toyed, and probably too, their thought patterns.

When people watch enough of the same television program there is a chance that some concepts (albeit unintentionally usually) are forced within themselves. This is due to emotional manipulation, which causes us to become more passive to critically analyzing information. Coupled with the ‘it’s just a show/book/so on” we don’t critically consider the information, become wrapped within the idea, and over time have a chance of imbedding those viewpoints within ourselves. This sort of thing is made plain by observing that while one knows that what they are watching isn’t real, their emotions are still aroused, they still, for the moments whilst watching, become in a sense, convinced of its realness and are caught in the ride.

The ideas considered is irrespective of them being fantastical or mundane. It is not necessarily a faulted thing to impregnate oneself with ideas conveyed from fiction, as many people in argument will attempt to convince the other of information. It is taught in argument to form relations with the problem and the audience, and while one who is making the argument is supposed to do it honestly; manipulative tactics (such as making things relatable, toying with emotion and so on) let down the barriers humans put up and allow a chance for the information to be considered. It is hard to fight something which has been used for betterment of some form or another. Whether or not betterment is subjective. But in fiction, ideas have the same sort of credibility as it does in argument. Albeit argument usually has sources to other works, the ideas expressed within fiction have their own use, and the stories can stick with the readers far more commonly than an argument. Neither one is necessarily more significant than the other.

So then I find myself at a certain seeming impasse. The ideologies and concepts I present within the universe I’ve crafted for my works, have some sort of archetypal connection to me. Though, as with fantasy it tends to be that one exaggerates events, concepts, and so on, in order to tell a fantastical adventure. Other times these concepts are entirely inventive and have little to no home world connection.

Perhaps it is that I feel mental burn due to the similarity of viewpoints on supernatural events within my own being and the ideas presented within my work. I always could spend my time devising a collection of experiments, events, and the philosophical outlook and comparative study between the unpredictable events, and metaphysics, against narrow scientific theory. But, the likelihood of making any sort of actual connection is incredibly dismal, for the parrotry of naivety, unscientific notions, and idiocy will be so rampant that any sort of mere flirtatious meditation will not be possible.

The alternative, and while I create my works not for philosophical discussion purely (as it is a minor outlet), it is my hope that some readers will find the grains of truth. Truth being ideas and perceptions, not the end-all-be-all. The point of them finding it, is not for conversion, it’s for meditative dances. It’s for considering ideas outside ones one common sense, irrelevant of its true actuality. One can find indirect growth from fiction just as one can get growth from the known universe and experiences known possible. Just as dreams and hallucinations can alter one’s perspective, for better or for worse.

I have run into thoughts of ending my fiction due to the aforementioned problems. But, then I become engrossed in the stories again, and again. Each time, deeper and more vivid of ideas, stories and characters. No, my works will never win any awards, they are not mind-boggling, but they are clawing at me to let them out.

As such, there is nothing I should do to redirect my course. If all authors (or most) are quite enamored with their works as it is commonly stated, then I should continue with my work based upon my own affection for it, and its deep relatability to my being.


My, oh my, that came off as being quite serious no? Well, this is the function of a blog.


The Blurred Ends between Oneself and their Fiction