05.1.18 近況

Five rejection letters and the novelty has dulled. (I’ve sent many more, but only have gotten few responses) Now comes the greater endeavor: enduring the rejections soon to come. To withstand the doubt that will laminate my perception. However, should I armor myself, perhaps I’ll survive long enough to stumble upon an agent that sees my work’s value.

Otherwise, I’ll disband from this quest, and my work either collects dust, or enters commercial dominion through my own unaided efforts. Where, it will be for the public to praise or ridicule, without myself having knowledge of it’s worth from the eyes of an agent or publisher.

Either reality may come to pass, however, I do hope my original goal sees fruition. After-all, recourse is never attractive after witnessing your failure.

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Less chipper than I’d like, but the point of this is to let my thoughts come out.

I’ll have to work on devising something more charming to write. Or discover some sort of unique quality I might posses that I can share with others.

See Part 2 of my Rejections here.

 

04.01.18 近況

The chaos that dwells within my mind must remain, lest I bore those I love.

It is a truth upon which I continually stumble. Frustrating, but understandable. But, frustrating. As I have scarce output for the things going on inside my mind. It builds alienation, loneliness.

People don’t care about my book, nor my characters. They aren’t interested in mythical constructs I’ve made nor the conflicts or deaths. And it’s just a fact I have to live with.

These characters and events within my mind will annoy only me, until I finally, possibly, find an audience who shares an interest; a connection. And then, they too can be annoyed by these fictional people.

02.01.18 近況

Hoo boy, my mind and spirit are spiraling into creative dormancy! Must be all that obsessing over my novel and agents business. Nightmares I tell you!

 

Of Self-Publishing

It’s a constant whisper each time I complete a query letter. Maybe, I should just do it myself. They might change the entire vision! I have specific interests, a certain image I think is vital for my book. Not for the story’s success, but for the contrasting imagery.

There are some authors who write novels and illustrate them accordingly. It achieves something that words alone cannot, or rather could, but would bog down the writing. Overly describing things is discouraged due to the slow pacing it can result in.

So by injecting artwork parallel to text one can achieve a greater vision. The readers will still use their imaginations–I know when I read books and there are character illustrations, my mind still puts twists on it.

But alas, many characters of mine, when imagined by many of my home country, I fear wouldn’t be seen the way I envisioned them. No matter how they are described. And one of the things I enjoy about reading is discovering appearances and things that I wouldn’t have considered. While I think my writing does convey the character’s and or places’ appearances, I find it prudent to produce pictorial art along with the text.

Yet, a publisher might hinder this vision. They mayn’t like the style. Perhaps it won’t sell in their minds. Given how difficult it is to find an agent, and I imagine just as time consuming to find a publisher; it constantly forces me to consider going at it on my own. For if i finally find an agent interested in my work, but I am not interested in the agent, then dozens more rejections may pass before I potentially find another.

From the cover, to illustrations–even the title. All could be reworked, and the image I have may be lost. While the story may remain, the pictorial design might just blend into the illustrations of thousands of books of my genera.

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My apologies for this unpolished mess. Just thinking aloud. 

If you have similar thoughts please share! I’d be quite delighted.